pearl harbour

2010-05-03T07:54:00.000-07:00

刚才两个人吵架，我在fb上写了句粗话，可是我其实并不知道他是那个意思。你问我，你不高兴。我这几天特别忙，你告诉我意思后我就跟你说对不起，就把他delete掉。你还是不高兴，我跟你说了几次sorry，不是故意的，你都是不高兴。你放假，我多忙，你还来跟我耍脾气。我生气了，说“sorry没用是吗？还回来。”

过后就吵架了。你就是这样，样样要我让你。你考试要我让你，我在忙的时候你跟我耍脾气我大声一点说话，这两个人相处是很平常的，为什么你就是要我让完你？你说错就错，我解释你说争。我也是人，我的尊严怎么办？两个人相处不是应该互相退让的吗？

期间打了几次电话给你，都被你盖了。你说你生气要让你盖电话，我都答应了。你知道我很讨厌你盖电话，尤其是一点小气就盖，让你盖我已经让步了，你难道看不出吗？为什么还要常常一点小事盖我的电话？

就为了这一点小事你又说分手。我爱你，不想失去你，我不跟你斗了。打给你。就这一通电话，就应为我先让步，我先跟你认错，就代表我错了吗？是我让你，可是一打给你，什么都变成是我的错了。你自己有没有想过自己的错，又没有说过对不起？

我先让步，你能不能够珍惜我？不要把这些当作理所当然好吗？我也是人，我也有尊严。可是因为我爱你，我才一让再让。

2010-04-06T02:59:00.000-07:00

我知道你生气。你说我没有关心你，因为虽然我知道你病，还跟你争东西。
你生气，说了很多不好听的话，我很伤心，一个人流泪，就会有一两分钟不出声。你就会怪我为什么不说话，因为我哭了。
如果你哭了，我不知道，你会骂我。我哭的时候，有谁知道？我从来不怪你没发现，只是不想你怪我为什么不出声，我想告诉你，你说的话很伤人，我听着就哭了。
我不想弄你不高兴了，我不会跟你争了，我想说的就在这里说，也许你永远都看不到我想说的，也许就该让这些不好的话，永远都只有我知道。我爱你。

2010-04-06T01:55:00.000-07:00

昨天，因为一些争执，弄到你不高兴。你不喜欢我跟你争，总之，我没有让你就是我不对。我不介意，这是对女朋友的方法。你说你累了，不想跟我说话，我很傻，不懂其实你只是气我，就没有打给你。你更加气了。

过了很久我打给你，你一点点东西就骂人，我又没让你发你的脾气，弄到你更生气，因为我没让你。你说你生病，我还更你争。我生病时，你又对我这样好。我生病时，有在你不懂我心里想什么而生你的气久久吗?又因为你说错一样东西而生你的气久久吗？男人和女人不能作比较。你想想，你生病了，可能我又说错一样东西，你就生久久的气。然后我又没有办法让你高兴回，你可能会说我笨，不会弄你高兴，我承认我这方面不好。我也不会在你生病时跟你争东西了，免得你又更气。

你每次生气，我都要忍很多气。我不是在埋怨，只是这样有没有人知道，我又有个方法出气。你看了，也许会气我，我不是投诉你，只是出出气。你要我让你，我让了，我把你所有的气忍下来，为了让自己心情好会，我就这样做。希望，有一天如果有什么事，好像你突然发现这些，能够了解我的心情，我爱你。

我伤心，为什么你不能让我一次？

2010-04-04T04:58:00.000-07:00

你没有开video，mic我也听不到，我才会等你弄好东西。你弄好了，你要给我看一些东西。我没看到，你生气了。

我说“我在做别的东西，总不能看不到你还一直开着那skype，”你生气了。
这次，是我没有心情好好跟你道歉，对不起
我心情不好，没说好听的话给你听，你生气了
我心情不好，你就让我一次，不能吗？

我不想开video，你就不能尊重我一下？没有开就代表我不爱你吗？我哭，哭了很多，不想你知道。
你会骂我，为什么哭不让你知道，可是，有时你尊重我一下好吗？我不让你知道，我不开webcam，我也想你能够让我一下。。。

为什么你不能tam我一次？我知道我是男生，可是我就不可以有心情不好的时候？你心情不好，我让你，我心情不好，想你。。。你一句话都没问，我之所以会关掉skype的video，是因为我哭了，你却没出声！

2010-04-01T06:17:00.000-07:00

你今天很烦，明天要考试、还有presentation
你打给我，想要我好好安慰你，我刚睡醒，还有点爱睡
你用skype打给我，有开video。你一直叫我等，我以为有人在房外，不方便讲话，原本想说你穿到好看的，就没说了，很累，靠在墙壁睡一阵。
你生气了，我知道我弄你生气，你不喜欢我看着你还睡觉的感觉。你其实不知道，我认为你穿得很好看，只是怕不方便没有说。
你开始发脾气了。跟你道歉，你说累了，打你手提。原本还想跟你说多几句，既然你这样说，就”eeerr“一声把话收回来，对你说，好把就打你手提。

你又生气，说去睡啦，反正你都要睡了，说话都要想这样久，要“eeerr”这样久。。。就盖了我的电话。。。马上sign out skype。为什么你不听我解释？为什么你什么都不听我解释，就自己认为是这样？为什么你说我要睡，可是我没有要睡，且不能解释？为什么你又盖我电话？

我很不高兴，打给你跟你说“为什么你说我errr就是要睡觉？我没有要睡，现在比较有精神了"你的气更大了，你认为我不让你。为什么你这么想，我只是想让你知道我不累，刚才真的不是累才errr。。。你又盖了我的电话了。。。

我打回给你。。。跟你说好，对不起，是我在你心情不好时没完全让你。
你心情很不好，说要睡了，不要我叫你，过后将多几句，你累到睡着了。我叫你几声，你说累了，要睡了，就盖了电话。

你send一个msg给我，说你记住，是你在我忙的时候，还弄我哭。
你有没有想过，我忙的时候，会不会因为你做错一件事就这样发你脾气吗？会不会盖你电话？我忙的时候，是不是照样好好跟你说话。我忙的时候，有说“你不要解释这样多，总之就是你错，错了还解释就是借口！”

为什么你这样对我？我做错一样东西，你就不能听我解释，就要盖我电话？我跟你说对不起，是我忍不住你的脾气，都在暗示你脾气不要这样不好，你就是还发我的脾气。

我让你，知道你忙，不跟你争。知道你不喜欢你认为我错，我却要解释这样多。
为什么你脾气这样不好，难道我睡着了，就不能好好说我？让你发脾气，因为我爱你;不跟你争，因为我爱你，为什么你还要发我脾气、盖我电话?
背后，自己可流了多少眼泪？

I need you, please don't leave me alone

2010-03-13T15:11:00.000-08:00

I am sorry. I really need you, please don't leave me alone.
I am sorry for hurting you, please forgive me, I love you.

宝贝老婆，对不起

2010-03-13T14:49:00.000-08:00

老婆，昨天我弄你伤心了。。。
请你回来好不好，我答应你，我会让我们像以前刚拍拖时一样甜蜜。。。

我不会再弄你伤心
做错东西我会承认，不会再弄你不高兴
也不会有一大堆理由
我知道你要对我耍脾气、撒娇
我用让你任性
毕竟你只是在我面前这样做
我会好好的包容你，希望我们可以好好的相处

你心情不好的时候，我会tam你高兴，
让你任性够了
才跟你说道理、理由

老婆，最近常弄到不高兴。
每次都是你不高兴，然后弄你高兴
一直这样的cycle
我希望从现在起不要不高兴
我希望你可以用吵架的时间
花一点在我身上
我需要以前那种被爱、被关心的感觉
我需要你像以前这样对我

如果你还记得我们在一起快乐的时候，
你愿意让我再次托着你的手
一起走过这个人生吗？
我爱你

please, don't leave me alone

等你。。。

2009-08-02T05:29:00.000-07:00

要什么时候，我才能永远跟你在一起？
我很想念你，我想跟你一起住。。。
我讨厌住在外面，我要住家里。。。
自己的家。。。
你要到几时才打给我？你把我丢在车站。。。
没有开电话，我讨厌你。。。

I ve learned to be a grown up, and still learning...

2009-07-21T05:48:00.000-07:00

Recently, i feel that I have matured, at least more matured than i was.
I tell myself I want to bear the responsibility a grown up bears, financially and in workplaces (college.)
I tell myself I am going to pick up good habits instead of procrastinating.
I tell myself I am going to think, and act like a matured young adult, like an adult with his responsibility.
I do not want to be a mere student, I want to be a matured young adult, for me to make myself a better person than I was.
Life is no longer as easy as study, it is about good habits. Pave the way for your future.

其实，我很想你。。。

2009-07-19T02:53:00.000-07:00

只要我的脑袋一空着，我就很想你。。。
我想回家，可是不能，有东西要做。。。过后有考试。
我想跟你说我其实也很想你，现在真的很想你。。。
我想跟你说，我爱你。。。宝贝。。。

TOUCHED...

2009-06-29T22:34:00.000-07:00

My dear, thank you...You came here, alone, just to meet me, my dear...

Although the time we can spend together is very little, but i was very happy in the past 48 hours.
Babe, and thanks for the "Transformer: Revenge of The Fallen" ticket you tried very hard to buy. I really enjoy watching movies with you.

We bought some clothes, and I enjoy shopping with you too. I really enjoy the day, a movie, some shopping, and a good dinner.

I know I am going over to Australia next year, but I have to say I have strong faith in two of us.
My dear, I know you miss me a lot there, you hope I will be with you always...Although I am not beside you now, as we are apart due to study, I promise you I will share every single piece of your sad and sorrow. I will always be with you.

Dear, this is one of the photos I like most, and I make my promise, I will always be with you.

SHOCKED...

2009-06-26T19:53:00.000-07:00

MICHAEL JACKSON DIED, on the 26th of June (Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia time).

It was on a usual friday morning in Subang Jaya, Malaysia. And the news spread. The influential "King of Pop", the legendary Michael Jackson has left the world, less than 15 days from his first ever performance after quitting the stage for more than a decade. He planned a comeback to bring the best performance to his fans, unfortunately, he left.

He died without much struggle, as claimed, from a cardiac arrest. He left us quietly.

During his career, his albums hit the billboards countless of time and he sold an estimated 750 millions of albums worldwide. He has been widely regarded as the most influential artist of all time, he is the best performer on stage, his famous moonwalk, the incredible anti gravity lean...showed the kind of talent he possessed.

Farewell and tribute to the Michael Jackson, the King of Pop, always a legend.
May you rest in peace.

There go A1906/2009

2009-06-21T11:04:00.000-07:00

Mathew was the first, Jason followed, Michael and Ze Hao went together, and Teng waited for his friend before he finally left, after 2hours of waiting.

There go Shawn and I, left in loneliness.
There go the lively, and sometimes noisy, A1906.
Everything in A1906, except Shawn and I, is gone.
In A1906, except Shawn and I and the loneliness, memories fill up all the space.
To Zehao, good luck in McGill. and to Teng and Jason the roommates, good luck in UBC. While Mathew, the "lucky" single room guy,as well as Michael, all the best in Toronto.

Shawn and I will remember you all, and the A1906 we used to live in.

My Princess

2009-06-20T19:38:00.000-07:00

The gravitational froce makes everything in this world falls, but, it did not make me fell in love, it is you, my dear.
And this is the 22nd month, and still, I feel the bond that holds we two together, strongly.
You are a good girl.
You are the princess in my life, that give me everything
And you have to put up with my temper, sometimes, and I apologize for that.
My dear, best wishes for both of us, and I love you.
Hold my hands, and I am never going to let you go, my dear.

Rocky journey...

2009-06-16T01:31:00.000-07:00

My dear, I know we had several rows recently.
I know that you were angry with me, my temper. I know it hurts. I am sorry.
We have been together for almost 2 years, it is a long time. I thank you for the care and love you have been giving me.
It is a long journey, shall we make it to its end, my dear?
I love you.

The very last day of A1906

2009-06-13T17:16:00.000-07:00

It is 14 of June 2009, it is a Sunday. This shall be the last day Shawn and I will be spending the day with our ICPU freinds in Casa Subang, the place where we have lived together for nearly a year.

We went to Sunway Lagoon yesterday, and had a good and expensive dinner. Sadly, Zhe Hao, Michael and Jason were not around. Nevetheless, they will be back tonight as they are going to their BTN camp tomorrow.

It shall be the last day A1906 exists as a whole. Good luck everyone.

After holiday and before mid year

2009-05-04T03:29:00.000-07:00

i went home last weekend. it was a three day holiday. i enjoyed the time spent with my family. sadly, like i used to be, i did little homework. working hard now to compensate. but i really miss my dear. i love you all, my family.